May 13, 2009 - Hellos !

Why hello there. =D I feel so horribly tired. =T Must get more sleep. Especially since I need to be on my best for the competition and practices. Meh. I'm not on the 4-person team. Instead, I'm a spare for the 4-person team (just in case someone gets sick) and I'm also competing by myself.. A one-person team.. Even though all my friends think it's so much more pro than the 4-person team, I think that it's.. BAD. I'm going to DIE under all that pressure ! I'd rather be on a team than be single. D= I'm so scared I'm going to make a mistake.. Bleh. They all said that we should stop worrying but they don't understand ! The pressure I place on myself. I have high expectations for myself. I expect myself to win. I expect myself to not make any mistakes. Ahh, I'm going to fail. =( This means so much to me. Even more than the Grade 8s mean to Melody and Elysia. That's A LOT you know. Saint John is more than the world to me. And I must WIN !